What I want to get out of this

I am not exact sure what I want to get out of this. Right now I am just worried. I am scared about finding the right topic and them getting the research done and them there is the whole writing the thesis thing. It is pretty terrifying. I'm not quite sure what the goal is. One thing that I think I want to get out of it is to be able to know a topic so well that I can spend two years with it and not hate it by the end of it. I want to do it for me. That's what it is supposed to be about.